Garnet: the birthstone of my son, Adam

Garnet: the birthstone of my son, Adam

Garnets are said to light up the night and protect it’s wearer from nightmares.
Garnet reminds us that actions speak louder than words and this was a motto that Adam lived by..Setting the mood for relaxation perhaps with lighted beeswax candles, lie down in your sacred space, surrounded by the crystals you feel especially bonded to today.  Free your mind…

Grief for our children

Grief for our children

It is harrowing, reading about the pain of other mothers.  It does not in any way give me comfort knowing that I am not alone on this grief journey…..Yes, it’s unbearable pain…

But I am hiding it.

Hiding it for Adam and hiding it for his brothers and sisters.

I smile for Adam.  His life was worth a smile.

My son’s funeral

My son’s funeral

The following words were written for my son’s funeral. They were the hardest words I have ever had to put on paper. They were written through a haze of tears, anxiety, pain… unbearable grief and despair. They are all over the place really, but they are real, raw and true…