I don’t know whether it’s the weather or not, but everything is quite literally up the creek for me the last few days.. How on earth do I do this? This is not the way it’s supposed to be…I should not be composing this, I can’t do it alone I have realised. Since I have been out to his gravesite a number of things have happened. First of all, my anxiety is through the roof! I feel down and depressed….