In honour of my Adam, this journal is dedicated to you, my son
I hope to honour your memory, your life and all of the wonderful feelings that you gave me, your mum. I feel love today, more than mere words can express. I feel your loss today very strongly. I want to remember you with smiles and laughter but it’s just not coming. Today is your birthday corresponding with my first blog post about you. I feel your loss palpably and can barely comprehend that you are not here. I miss you so very much and the longing to see you and hold you is inexpressible.
I love you my son, we all miss you but I am trying to be strong for you. My soul bleeds, my heart bleeds, real blood and all of the soul life that this represents.
I hope you can feel me, your mum, Jude is very sad today. We miss you so very much. I thank you for reconnecting me to my brother and sister – only your soul could do this – so please take comfort in this.
We are together and will be always – with no more separations. Thank you my darling boy.
I love you, your mumma xxxxxxxxxxxxx one kiss from each member of your family